Insight Again

Notice that whenever I'm not posting here at least weekly, I am probably not quite paying attention to my own life. Today is one of self-examination. I am paying attention to wasted moments of time. I sat here in my room most of yesterday thinking that I wanted to do some video work to practice and learn. It just sounded so boring. It's the thing I love to do the most when I have a goal. What changed? Well, I was thinking about that this morning, and a verse that had been on my mind earlier popped back into my head. "If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, " Ok, now I'm looking it up, I don't have it memorized THAT well. "and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing."

That section of 1 Corinthians 13 usually tells me that it's stupid to do things out of selfish ambition. Today, it was telling me that it's useless to do things without ambition. If I think I should get better at something for the future, I think it makes so much more sense to practice by making it useful NOW. Transferring that idea over to the rest of college, it is not about studying and making the grades or even pure knowledge (that's boring too), it's about applying every bit of newfound wisdom to life.