New Years Part 2

Some people are very hard to get to know well. Other people decide to publish very personal things for the whole world to see. I don't understand how people can just let the whole world know what's wrong with them - seems like a thing too involved in vulnerability - yet undeniably I am in that category...me and Blogdor. To make a long story short and to protect the names of the innocent, I'll keep my post vague, but concise. I have been through a lot in the last few weeks dealing with who I am and who God is and whether He has any relevance to my world. Also, I was dealing with other ways to view life in general. In the end, God broke through and showed me just the awesomeness of life and how life just isn't the same without Him. The other part of dealing with myself came to reconciling two people that belong to me. One of the people I am very familiar with while I like the other one quite a bit more. The first, is who I am, and the other man is the person whom I'd like to be. That isn't just an issue of perfection, it's also an issue of sitting on the couch when I could be accomplishing one of the too-many things I want to do. A lot of it came, interestingly enough, out of spending time with someone who was too busy while only focusing on a few things. I follow that up in my own life by trying to commit to more things. I ate at The Olive Garden for the first time yesterday. How long had I been wanting to do that? Why hadn't I? I sit around longing for things that are well within reach. Afraid of failure? I doubt it. It may just be 100% pure laziness - but am I really that lazy??? All I know is that life right now is better and more believeable than the razor commercial that says their razor is "like having an angel by your side." I have God Himself by my side and I wonder why I still hold back. Stay tuned to hear whenever I post again.