Sunshine

Today is one of those days where if all of life could be summed up in two days, it was. Of all situations, it is the most unlikely to actually make a difference. I had Saturday (yesterday) all planned out. I rented "Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind" on several recommendations and paired it with "New York Minute" the next stupid Mary Kate & Ashley Olsen movie to laugh at. I was all set to wash laundry during the two movies and then doing homework, some light reading and then going to bed. About 5:15, I ended up changing my plans when Jake Russell burst into my room saying I should go to St. Louis. He and Natalie W. finally convinced me to go.

So next thing I know, I'm leaving clothes scattered across my bed and driving my car down I-70. We eat a lil ravioli and have a little hot cocoa and we're on our way to the City Museum. My idea of a museum was kinda blown away as I spent the next several hours crawling, climbing, and wandering through mazes of metal, wood, and rock. I got myself caught in a narrow passageway in a cave and without knowing, I kinda ripped my pants. Natalie, Charity, Alexis, and Jake all kinda waited a while to tell me that there was kind of a gaping hole in my pants right over my butt. A while later, Jake is hanging upside down in a rope lattice only to get a thorough talking-to from one of the security guys. In this place where everything is climbable and they claim in multiple places that they are not responsible for injuries, he gets 'in trouble'.

Well, we didn't stay long after that, and it was off to Natalie's house to find my car. I had several opportune moments to show off my underwear between the place where we were in the museum and the parking lot. I had to walk even further because instead of parking in the three dollar parking, we parked in a place that was 'three except without the "th" but with an f.'

I didn't get back to my dorm until well after 2 a.m. I got some good long sleep and then got around to watching the two movies. Eternal Sunshine was an incredible movie. Even though it didn't follow a linear storyline, it was easy to follow and I'd say even life-changing. It's a movie that instead of making you really think at one pivotal point in the movie, it is a movie solely comprised of those points. After the movie was over, I just kinda sat still for 5 minutes or so. My head just started flowing with ideas and thoughts. I decided that the theme for my Digital Media portfolio was going to be "Live Out Loud."

Then I watched the STUPID, stupid Olsen twin movie. The highlight quote of the movie went something like "We need that dog. That dog is my life. And when he poops...his poop is my life." Like I said, it was stupid. I loved it. I took the two movies back and came back to my dorm still flooded with thoughts and wrote out an introduction to my portfolio project. It contrasted ideas like "All the world's a stage" with "but not all are actors," and saying "There is no audience." The premise is basically that we need to express ourselves, but it is not for an audience so that we look good. It is for the expression itself and that that amplified life ripples effect to the far reaches of the world. It was interesting - yesterday was probably the most exciting day I've had in a long while and that came from just expressing myself through having fun. Today, I see a movie that in some way, for me, confirmed and blasted my mind. My creativity has hit a dry spell. In fact, I'd say that I've always been technically competent but wasn't very expressive or artistic. It was because I wasn't truly living and I didn't realize it until today.